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About my writer's block
Nov. 17th, 2023 02:01 pmTW: self-hate and many other bad things.
Well... in March, I got a writer's block. I swear, I had so many fanfiction ideas in my head, but neither of them was released and actually written, even though I had everything: plan, desire, passion, ideas... It just didn't go. But the worst of all was anxiety. "What if this is not realistic?" and "This is terrible." "Your readers are waiting!" and "Look, they forgot about you, and they love other authors more than you. You're not needed to anyone!" "Look, many authors are already writing their 50th fic. Why are you so lazy?" and "The world would be better without the piece of garbage like you." Nightmares about being hated and having to leave fanfiction world. Terrible scenes in my head. I lost my love for the fanfiction (and not only it — many other hobbies I loved were almost forgotten). A huge amount of terrible situations got me off track.
And I realized that this must NOT continue. I have many, many ideas. So I should implement them. At least one or two.
And maybe I'll change the language I'm writing (I used to write in two languages and then translate the remaining parts into one). I hope I'll be able to publish anything soon.
Well... in March, I got a writer's block. I swear, I had so many fanfiction ideas in my head, but neither of them was released and actually written, even though I had everything: plan, desire, passion, ideas... It just didn't go. But the worst of all was anxiety. "What if this is not realistic?" and "This is terrible." "Your readers are waiting!" and "Look, they forgot about you, and they love other authors more than you. You're not needed to anyone!" "Look, many authors are already writing their 50th fic. Why are you so lazy?" and "The world would be better without the piece of garbage like you." Nightmares about being hated and having to leave fanfiction world. Terrible scenes in my head. I lost my love for the fanfiction (and not only it — many other hobbies I loved were almost forgotten). A huge amount of terrible situations got me off track.
And I realized that this must NOT continue. I have many, many ideas. So I should implement them. At least one or two.
And maybe I'll change the language I'm writing (I used to write in two languages and then translate the remaining parts into one). I hope I'll be able to publish anything soon.
